As the title indicates, today has not been great. Yesterday I had lots of lower back pain and a little lower abdomen pain. I was hopeful that it was because of a baby. Jonathan worked a 48 hour shift... and I never sleep well when he is gone. Last night I woke up several times because of nightmares. I am not going into them because, honestly, to relive them would not be mentally beneficial to me.
I digress... I was super tired getting to school today. Of course, we had our first "Lock Down Drill." All the kids had hundreds of questions. It was tiresome just trying to prepare them in case the worst ever happens. Amid all of this drama, my body decides to start. All I kept thinking was that I had to wait until I got home to break down.
The day never seemed to end. Finally. Time to go home... and then to a meeting at church. I halfway had myself convinced it was just implantation bleeding (especially since I just took the shot 8 days ago to cause me to ovulate). I went to the meeting (which is great and will not conclude until tomorrow), then a little WalMart browsing with the hubs, and then home. Still no breakdown. I was pretty pleased with myself.
Then it happened. During the middle of the 90's movie "The Mighty Ducks" I lost it. The boohooing and everything. I think it scares Jon when that happens. Oh well, that is just me I guess. He tried to reassure me that we would have a baby... someway or another.
At this point, I am so tired that I have lost the will to cry. It takes way too much effort. I am going to bed right now I think. I'll am thinking that this weekend I will work on my "Affording a Baby" or "Affording an Adoption" post.
Hope your baby travels bring you back safely.
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